It’s hard to explain the love a person has for the things they bond with. Parents surely have this frustration; the emotion of love is deeply tied to a child. I tend to bond with living and not-so-living things equally. I think it explains my love for technology and engineering. I romanticize the elegance of a well-design object as to render it art.

That’s how I first felt about [Frontier](http://frontierkernel.org) and [Radio Userland](http://radio.userland.com), software that was so tightly integrated within itself that it was it’s own ecosystem. You could build within it, on it, or for someone else and still have the same joy of creation. It’s something I certainly miss.

My old weblog was built using Radio UserLand software and because of that romantic factor, it died because of Radio UserLand. I began spending more time writing code for others and not enough for myself. The whole thing culminated in an unhealthy adoration for the UserLand founder Dave Winer, desperately seeking his approval and instead invoking his wrath.

Try as a I may, I’ve never truly shaken the desire to play in the UserTalk sandbox. There are *many* other programming environments that can do some of the things that Frontier and Radio UserLand can do. I challenge you to find *one* that can do them all–control a local computer, interact with web servers using open standards, store and retrieve information from an internal without a complicated language, present a standard user interface on Windows or Mac without using a web browser or second application. There’s much more, but it’s 10:30PM and I’m tired.

If you’ve read this far, I’m sure you’re wondering what the point is of this Radio UserLand love story. Here’s the money shot: I’m willing to help get things off the ground again. I’m willing to work with everyone without condition or exclusion. I don’t have any preconceived or hidden goals. I just want to work with a group to make Radio UserLand and it’s operating environment modern again. I don’t have the skills to do things on my own, but I think I can help others fill the cracks in the environment.

So, to those I might have wronged in the past: I’m sorry. I’ve learned lessons and I’m ready to get to work.